maddie moments: July 2010

JULY 28TH. 2010.

This was the longest day of my life. I have never been so anxious for something to happen. I am going to tell this story from my point of view. I have always been .. I don't want to say afraid of hospitals, of blood, of anything in this family. .. but that is the best word to describe it.. afraid.

In health class I guess I always missed those days where we would watch the video's on CHILD BIRTH. Or when I was watching the baby show on TLC growing up.. I always changed it when it showed anything like this. call it what you want.. it just isn't something that I can handle watching.

well. on July 28th.. I saw something that was completely new to me! A baby being born.

I can honestly say.. it was the absolute most insane thing I have ever seen. I look at my sister in a whole new light now.. she is my hero! I have never seen someone in so much pain. I have never seen someone have so much strength! I wanted to faint/throw up/cry/laugh/leave/stay/sleep/go on a mission to avoid marriage(babies)at all costs/hide/ all at the same time.

(this was when we were still happy to be there.. woo!)

This is probably half way through labor..... me trying to distract myself..

me with the best seat in the house... (I was warming up to it)

Katie was the funniest though.. I have to give her that.

I was laughing so hard (sorry kate)

but she would be a 10 on the pain scale .. and all the sudden you would hear "How good am I doing?? Am I doing SO good?? tell me that again!!" "BRING IT ON!"

haha. we were entertained.

But after a long day of waiting.. crying.. hoping.. praying.. telling myself I was never going to do this .. EVER ..

I took it all........back

I have never witnessed something as amazing as this.. It was incredible. It was one of the most spiritual moments of my life. definitely one of the best days of my life.

I can only imagine if it was my own.

I already love baby Steele.. so much.