Craziness.

I almost got in three major accidents this week.  One being me forgetting to notice the ONE WAY sign on 6th avenue downtown.  I have never had so many people honking at me not to mention my heart was on the floor.  

It was testing week at school. We were all supposed to get white smocks to wear during our test one day.  I forgot mine, but I didn't forget my white bath robe.  So sure enough, I took my test with my bath robe tied around me.  My class got a kick out of it, but I got full credit out of it.  

I swear I have a good amount of clothes in my closet.  But everytime I go to find something to wear, I think they all disappear.  I dread finding an outfit to wear.  I think when I moved here, I didn't think I was going to have a social life.  Not that I have much of one now either, but I do go to find an outfit a lot more than I expected I would.  I am going to chillis in a little bit with all the girls.  Crap. maybe I'll just wear a sunday dress?? or my robe.

Thursday night I went to the gym and worked out.  It felt so good.  But then as I was driving home I was really craving in & out.  So my hard work went down the drain but that strawberry shake sure didn't. 

I have a favorite recipe of banana cake.  It's seriously divine.  I will post it later.  I attempted to make it for our party at school on Friday (to celebrate our HALF WAY MARK) I am half way done. crazy.  anyway, I went to the grocery store to get all of my ingredients and when I got home and started to make it I realized that I had forgotten baking powder.  It was getting late and I was so tired.  do I skip that part of the recipe or do I go back to the store which sounded like the last thing I wanted to do.  so I debated for 20 minutes and then gave in and went to the store.  I was glad I did because it was going to forsure turn out right and it was also a nice night outside.  Well.  I got baking soda.  Which I already had.  I realized all of this after I put it in the bowl with all of the other ingredients.  shucks. this night I also knocked the key holder off the wall and the keys went everywhere and then I knocked over a vase of flowers onto the floor.  I was exhausted.

my cake was a hit though at school the next day. next time I'll skip the store all together.

Mckenzie mae Haggard . one of my besties.  Got her MISSION CALL THIS WEEK!! she is going to the Dominican Republic!! I am so happy for her. She is such a good example to me and she is going to bless the lives of many people with her smile and with her testimony.  Thanks Kenz for being such a good friend and for being the amazing person that you are!  Even though you will be very missed, I am so excited for you to have this experience!

so... I am going to be an auntie!! and it is going to be a baby BOY. ohhh how I can not wait to mug on him.  I am going to do everything in my power to be the best aunt. it's on bays. 

My family is leaving for Japan on sunday. tomorrow. i'm not going with them.  bring me back a japanese boy. haha sorry. I had to.

I am going home in a week.  It couldn't come sooner.  I am ready to see my home and everything that comes with it! especially you mom, and your tortilla soup! : )

I slept in till 12 today.  I think the last time I did that was after Phase camp in 6th grade. I'm not kidding.  

going to get ready for chillis. (if you know me, you know that is like equivalent to going to open presents on christmas morning.  The only thing different is on Christmas you don't know what you are going to get.)  

Water with lemon please.  Chips and salsa.  And a Chicken Ranch Sandwich please, yes 2000 calories will be fine!

thanks.

It hurts.

Some of my FAVORITE moments in my life have been some of the worst.  the absolute WORST. Where the aching in your stomach is killing you because you are trying to squeeze every muscle you have so that that laugh doesn't come out.  Where you feel like a burst of air is fighting to come out of you but it is going to make a loud noise out of your mouth and it would be totally and completely inappropriate to laugh at that moment? These are moments that I live for.  I need to document a few of my favorite moments that I shouldn't have laughed, for so many reasons I shouldn't have laughed....but I did.  Because that's just me.  (I don't expect you to read these, but I need a good laugh right now)

Bailey remember that time that we were at the Madsens for dinner and we just had this feeling that they were going to call on one of us to say the prayer at family dinner with everyone sitting there at the table? not to mention Truman Madsen sitting directly across the table.  We should have came fashionably late, I realized this the second that they said, "we like to have our guests say the prayer Maddie." ....... okay ....... but what about my sister that is trying not to laugh sitting next to me and I can hear her squirming in her seat?? what about her.... how am I supposed to not laugh in this moment?? 

Julianne remember the time that we were sitting in our apartment and that boy came over and wanted to practice his opera for us?? because he would be singing it in the ward talent show the next day and wanted us to hear it for some reason?? do you remember how painful that was the moment his first note left his lips.  That note was one of the loudest sounds I have ever heard a human make.  And it was way too high.  And we both were standing behind the couch squeezing our legs together so tight, pinching ourselves.  Then I all of the sudden had to run out of the room because I had to sneeze?? is that what I said?? then you came back to check on me and to see if my sneezing was going okay.. but he still kept singing?? so loud. still. so loud.  we tried with everything in us to laugh silently.  We hoped he couldn't hear the tears coming down our faces, or the snorts that were being let out..we were rolling around on our bedroom floor laughing till I couldn't handle the pain any longer. and he STILL kept singing.

One time I was getting set apart for a calling in my ward, and when the man laid his hands on my head, he began by saying, "Madison Brynn Crosly." I know I know I should have corrected him.  But I didn't because I silently started laughing and was trying soooooooo hard not to burst out.  

One time I was in 6th grade and I had to recite a poem in front of my class.  I couldn't do it.  I tried closing my eyes.  I could not stop laughing.  No one else was laughing.  Just me.  In front of the class.  I COULDN'T STOP.  finally my teacher suggested I go outside of the door and say it loud enough in the hall so everyone could hear me.  DID THIS REALLY HAPPEN?? ......... I have a problem!

The other day I was in Sacrament meeting.  I picked up two different cups of water and they both happened to have holes in the bottom.  The water spilled all over me.  TWICE. 3rd time was the charm, after my face was bright red and I tried.... but I was laughing so hard.  reminds me of when Julianne spilled the bread down her cleavage in our singles ward.  It dropped DOWN HER SHIRT.  hahahahahahaha. it's like the boy holding the tray didn't notice.  he acted like he didn't but we know he was painfully holding in his laughter.

Laughing is one thing that I can't get through my day without doing.  I hope that in 50 years I am still having moments like this. One thing I do know forsure, is that I will still be pinching you under the table, trying soo so hard not to laugh. because that is just me.

February 14.

(thank you to the sweet boy who gave me these.)

I hope everyone had a wonderful day.  I sure did.  Valentines day is so great isn't it? what girl doesn't like getting flowers? : ). Today though, I am grateful for the lesson that was taught in Relief Society.  We talked about how Valentines day is a special day to celebrate love! And then we talked about how great love is, and how powerful it can be in our lives.  I truly believe this.  I believe that love can heal anything and anyone.  I believe it is one of the greatest feelings we can and will feel on this earth. Then we began to talk about the love that our savior feels for us.  He gave his life for us.  He loves us more than we can comprehend.  We reflected on this today and for the first time in my life I actually looked at valentines not as 'single awareness day' but as... wow... someone loved me enough to give their life for me so that one day I can return to live with my Father in heaven again and together with my family.... forever. My heart was filled with joy today. 

what an amazing thought.

I hope you all had a great day celebrating love.

Love love Love love love love love

Happy valentines day!!

Our friendship works off last minute plans.

this time: we decide we should meet in vegas and road trip it back to Cali together.

Decided: Friday night

Adventure began: Saturday

handicap section. nose bleeds. last minute plans. vegas. subway? pizzaria. buffalo bills. rain. talk. noodles&company. emvs. dear johney appleseed. wheat thins. 15 year old threat. nap on the beach. rock castle. card games half asleep. heavenly couch. six flags. no. sea world. no. indoor skydiving. no. laughing at our future babies. I'm scared of chinese people. please let me drive. theresa. 204. 24. fletcher and diane. HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH. pennies probably hit happy worker on the head. tower of terror. bug eyes. waiting in line for roger rabbit. special k bars. perfect weather. Pt cruiser that we could have had sunday dinner on. are we really at disneyland? I can't believe it!! "i can." H&M. it's a small world. fast passes. pictures. cruising the tracks.  (I didn't even get to drive this time). I TRUST YOU. coconut lotion. subway. cruise control. driving blind. broken defrost. DP. ignoring alarm clock? never. morning run. breakfast at pipes. coconut lotion. chapstick on my nose and chin and cheeks. please let me drive. rubios fake fight. shopping. pictures. temple. good talks. rain rain rain. your rash. Anaheim. laughing. baskin robbins. Mark did you not flush the toilet? (haha) when I'm in Rome, I sleep. ice box and scarf. can I please drive?. it's just better if you don't. fighting laughter.  

Mark . in . C.A.L.I.F.O.R.N.I.A: loved every minute.

Mom's always know.

This post is for my momma.

Remember that time when I came home from school and I ran into your room in tears and just needed you to hold me? and you did.  Like a baby.

Remember that time when my room was messy (that time) and you decided to clean it for me and leave a note on my bed telling me how much you loved me? I still have that note.

Remember the many times you gave me advice and still do.  Great advice.  You are one of the most amazing, spiritual, strong, loving people I know.  You are.

Remember all those times that we laughed till we couldn't laugh anymore because our tummy's hurt? And the noise that you make that makes us laugh harder.

Remember that time you told me to go to the mall and buy something really special to me so that I would always remember you when I look at it? I still wear that necklace everyday.  And everytime I see it, or reach up and feel it, I remember all the lessons you have taught me. I remember all the times that you let me cry, that you laughed with me, that you shared your thoughts, that you let me talk.  I remember the special moments that a daughter shares with her mom.  I remember the road trip to cali to drop me off to stay.  It was hard to say goodbye.  But I remember the look on your face, it was one telling me to remember always who I am, one letting me know that you always supported me, that you loved me no matter what, and that you believed I could do anything.  I love you mom!! and once again, you know when I need a special push from you.  This package in the mail.......Reminded me how much you love me and reminded me how much I love you!!

Save me my side in your bed.  I'll be home REAL soon! : )

Ali came.

and I wish she never left.